Deliver ME from ME!

I’ve been on a journey of self discovery for most of the year (probably for most of my life hahahaha) – hence the sparse blog posts & #OOTDs or any sort of active social media life for that matter. 

It started with my spiritual walk, then having to relearn & reaffirm some truths about myself (especially after gaining back all the weight I lost last year) – I’m still learning – then came the decision to join the natural hair movement (NOT as easy as I assumed) –  spiritually, physically & mentally a lot was/is going on but the most prominent lesson I’m learning over and over is that I am my only hinderance. I am in my own way! 

My state of mind, the way I see myself – and I don’t just mean physically – it restricts me in every way in every area. Allowing fear, insecurities and a negative self image to cripple me. Constantly second guessing myself and doubting my abilities, living in a loop de loop of self-doubt & self shame. It’s time I break the cycle!!! 

I challenged myself to take these pics & do a blog post – totally unprepared – I had to get out of my own head , go against the grain, regardless of the weight I’ve gained or how I think I look with my big “boskop/kroeskop” because let me tell you, going natural has challenged every thought and every belief I had about myself, my appearance and my self image – Yes…hair…hair can do that!!! It’s a good thing though – it’s pushed me further out of my comfort zone – literally forcing me to embrace my truth! 

So with big arms, big hips and my now big hair – I smiled (a genuine happy smile) and posed for the camera! 

I’m big and that’s how I am right now. And this is who I am right now. And I want to live right now!!! I’m tired of hiding behind extra weight or heat damaged hair or jiggly thighs – constantly obsessing about the bathroom scale, shying away from cameras…NO… life is happening and I want to live it! 

This past week we said goodbye to 2 friends, 1 went to bed and never woke up – she wasn’t even 45yrs old – the other succumbed to injuries he sustained in a car crash – only 25yrs old – life is too short Lauren, quit fretting the small stuff! 

So this is me – boskoppy, saggy booby (I’m a mom of 3 & I probably could do with some new bras LoL – but good heavens who sets the prices for bras?!?!? – must be a man), big thighed & flabby armed – it’s me and it’s always going to be me, well, atleast physically maybe, BUT there’s another ME inside this ME and that ME is growing & learning everyday & in this moment, somehow, that’s enough! 


Leggings & Tunic: The Fix | Bag: MRP | Sandals: Gifted 

Lu 

xoxo 

I forget but God…

Hey Beautiful People 

Here’s a funny story…not funny like ha ha but you know…

My confidence as a person and as a blogger has taken a serious beating since gaining weight. Last year I was able to drop a good amount of weight – not really intentionally though – I had a really trying year, my personal & spiritual life were a mess, I was stressed and depressed and honestly, I hardly ate. I’m a happy eater – so therefore we can conclude that I am happy a lot of the time…ha ha! 

Because of this I’ve been unmotivated to blog or even shop – I’m sure many of you can relate – but God has a way of always reminding me where He’s brought me from. 


This morning I picked up this stethoscope for a cousin (her kid needed 1 for a school project) but it instantly reminded me of the time I was expecting Aimee. 

A little scene-setting…

I’d had a weight loss op done a few years prior to falling pregnant and I wasn’t in very good health. I started off at 63kgs in the beginning of my pregnancy and by the 7th month I’d dropped to 40kgs. I was sick, in constant pain, I wasn’t eating and numerous times I contemplated suicide (the pain was that bad). I remember being in such tremendous pain and speaking such horrible words during my pregnancy – death, abortion, suicide – to name a few and yet at the same time I prayed that little Aimee would make it. 

I purchased 1 of these stethoscopes because I was so afraid that she’d die inside my womb. The pain would keep me awake at night and I’d lie there with my stethoscope trying to make sure I could hear her heart beat – I’m not sure if I did hear it – but that’s what I did! 

Aimee had to be delivered prematurely, she just wasn’t thriving inside my womb so at 7months she was born at a tiny 1.4kgs – literally just skin and bone. She stayed in Neo ICU for close to 3 weeks and it was the hardest 3 weeks of my life. I blamed myself for everything that happened to her – it was all those terrible things I spoke over her – I’d say – but I was in so much pain that I just wasn’t thinking clearly – I know that’s no excuse though! 


This was a month before Aimee was delivered ☝🏽


Today God reminded me of His awesome, miracle-working power. He reminded me where He brought me from ( a dying bed in Milpark ICU), He reminded me that my story, my message, is so much more than anything as superficial as my weight. I look at Aimee and I’m in awe of Him – that even in my weakness, my pain, my sickness, He had a plan for us. I am so much more than the number on the back of my jeans. 

I’ll be doing a blog post on my story soon!


Thank You for the reminder Lord. 

Stay Slayin & Stay Prayin y’all 

Lu xxx 

Bata Shoes

Bata Shoes launched their new range called Insolia and I was so blessed to be spoiled with a pair in the loveliest deep red – yayness!!! 



Now, as a heavier girl, I tend to avoid heels as they can be quite uncomfortable and painful – I guess being heavier on my feet adds more pressure on the forefoot – BUT – as you can see, the shoe is designed to reduce forefoot pressure and allows for even weight distribution – and let me tell you – THEY AIN’T LYING Y’ALL!

I was able to dine and dance the night away in these babies with zero discomfort! I’ll definitely be adding a few pairs from the range to my shoe collection! 


Thank you to Bata Shoes for the spoil and for getting it precisely right with this design! 

Thanks for stopping by and stay sassy now! 

Lu xxx 

Style Inspiration – Beauticurve 

I fell in love with this top the moment I saw Rochelle Johnson from Beauticurve rocking it. I knew I had to have it but that meant actually having one made which was the best decision because that seemingly small idea was the catalyst to getting me off my behind and making my dream a reality.  Only God!!!

I approached my trusted tailor (now trusted friend) and had him make up this top for me. Since then Joe and I have designed (and re-designed) a few items and it’s exciting and exhilarating and scary all at the same time, but I’m loving it. (Watch this space My Plus Size sisters!). 

We added the cut out detail to the bottom of the top as well (to give it our own pizazz) and I’m quite pleased with the final product but I’d like to hear what my ladies out there think of the top, so please, holla at ya girl?!?


Top – DIY (well kinda ha ha!) | Jeans – MRP | Shoes – Makro | Sunnies – Cotton On 

Stay Sassy now xxx

Lu 

The Timeless Trench

 

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It has been a VERY long time since my last post but allow me to let you inside my head for a bit…

At the beginning of the year I decided that I would only pay for clothing that fit the following criteria:

  1. The item was a classic/timeless piece or
  2. It was something that I personally designed and
  3. It’s something that was tailor-made to fit me and
  4. Aim for quality over quantity

So in essence that meant that I really had to put a lot of thought into my purchases – no more adding items to cart just because!

Which brings me to this Timeless Trench Coat from the fabulous Fablane Online  – purchased at a ridiculously affordable price – absolute value for money because the quality is fantastic!

Trench Coat – Fablane Online | Leather-Look Leggings – China Mall | Tank Top – PnP Clothing| Heels – MrP | Sunnies – Cotton On

I love that it’s light-weight which is perfect for mid-season weather as well as layering for the colder days approaching . I went with an all black outfit to put emphasis on the coat and I think it worked well!

Thank you Michelle @ FabLane Online – you NEVER disappoint!

Stay tuned for more classic and unique items I’ve added to my wardrobe in the last few months…and stay sassy now!

Lu xxx

 

 

Argan Oil Review 

Hello, from a not-so-sunny South Arica!

My first blog post for 2017 and it’s a review so let’s get right to it!


I was sent a couple of bottles of this Siri Uzuri Argan Oil a few months back by a fellow blogger, check out her blog here

I decided to put the product through a thorough test as hair and skin products often need adequate time to gauge true results. 
I started using the product on my hair first since my hair is quite dry and damaged due to regular use of heating tools. My first application didn’t turn out well though, my hair was greasy and heavy and I realized I might have applied a tad too much – no surprise there – moderation was never a friend of mine.

I started using the oil more sparingly and the results were much better. It sealed my ends nicely after straightening and gave my hair a lovely shine. I have to say, I’m not very fond of the natural smell though, I prefer products that leave a nice scent on my hair since hair irons also add an awful smell to hair. 

The best result I got from the oil is when I decided to apply the oil to my husband’s problematic skin. He suffers with eczema and very dry, itchy skin so I applied the oil to the affected areas and I was amazed at the result. In fact, I think the oil worked better for his skin than my hair. It left his skin moisturized and soft without causing further irritation. Needless to say, both bottles ended up in his cupboard. 


Thank you to Meea Parkins at MamaMeea for giving me the opportunity to review this great product! 

Thanks for stopping by & stay sassy now! 

Lu xxx 

It’s my birthday & I’ll cry if I want to…

Happy Tears y’all, happy tears!!!

34 years old – whaaaaaaaaat?!?!? Didn’t I just turn 30 a minute ago!?!?!

I must admit though, I love getting older – no really – I do!!! When I think of the shy, scared, ashamed-of-some-extra-weight-girl I was back then compared to who I am now – wow!!!! Growth! 

Look, I’m not saying I’m on some Kanye West confidence level right now (ha ha) but I’m a hellavu lot more comfortable being me and that makes my heart happy! 

Skirt, shoes & earrings  – Truworths | Top & sunnies – Mr P | Choker – RogéroStyle
Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!

Stay Sassy now xxx

Lu

Wedding Bells!

Congratulations to my niece Kirsten & her now husband, Shannon, who tied the knot this past weekend!

What a memorable celebration – in fact, I’m still recovering, dancing all night left me rather sore and stiff (yes, I need to start working out, I know this!). 

Everything was absolutely perfect, the venue, the décor, the food was amazing, the wedding entourage looked absolutely stunning, not to mention the blushing bride- wow –  just perfect! 

Thank you Kirsten & Shannon, for allowing us to celebrate this day with you.   

I wish you a beautiful life together!






 


Thank you to Stacey @ MissBoss Couture for designing my beautiful dress. 

Lu xxx 

Attention Ladies 

I’d like to introduce you to an upcoming fashion designer who’ll be opening her store this weekend. So please pop in!!!

Blasting into Spring like!


Hello Beauties!

Notice I said “blasting” because honestly – I’m just tired of winter! Only a couple more days for Spring though! Yay!

It’s been quite warm recently, although there’s still a slight chill in the air with winter on its way out, especially in the early mornings but today I threw caution to the wind. 

I thought I’d probably be a little cold in sandals and an off shoulder dress but the rebel in me just couldn’t!!! Luckily it turned out to be a rather fine day so no blue toes over here – ha ha!

How cute is this dress though?!?! Another one of Fablane Online’s gems. You can check out her merchandise here


Dress – Fablane Online | Sandals & earrings – MRP | Headscarf – Gifted | Chocker – RogéroStyle

Stay Sassy xxx 

Lu 

Windy Days & Dresses 


Hey Beauties!

So…I chose the wrong day to wear a dress – it’s windy out here!!!


Also, please excuse the creases – I’ve been sitting at my desk waiting for an opportunity to take my pics…

Moving along swiftly…Hey, did I mention  I’m wearing a belt around my neck – ha ha! Yes, it’s supposed to be on the dress but I kinda liked it more around my neck…feeling all daring LOL! 

But on serious note – I like to experiment with accessories , a simple belt could be worn in many different ways, head, arm, neck, just play around and see what works best! 


Dress & Jacket – Truworths | Boots – Jet | Sunnies – MrP 

Stay Sassy Ladies xxx

Lu